2020 - what, what!?!?!
Updated: Dec 31, 2019
With the end of a year, the start of a new, passing of holidays, and settling in for the winter months that lie ahead, I have decided to start a blog. Writing has always been something I've enjoyed, from scribbling in journals as an angsty teenager (and adult if we are being fully honest) to writing for my job (less angsty, more "just the facts, ma'am"). However, I no longer own a journal or care to write down every thought that enters my head these days - it would be full of a lot of lists, good intentions to go to the gym, gripes about people who annoy me, and thoughts of quitting my day job. I have struggled as a (gulp) middle-aged mother, wife, worker, and maker to find my place in the writing world. I've thought of blogs before but didn't know where or how to begin and maybe wasn't motivated enough to investigate thoroughly. Plus, most of my blog knowledge comes from recipes on the internet where I have to slog through a lengthy amount of bullshit before I get to the actual ingredients and instructions - who loves the "jump to the recipe" tab? This girl! But now that I have put my creative self out there in other ways (please peruse the rest of the poorly put together website for further proof:), and since it is going to be 2020, and since no one really visits my website anyway - there seemed like no better time or safer venue.
I'm not exactly sure what this blog will be about, probably a little bit of everything. I'm not sure any singular aspect of my life is so exciting that I can narrow in my subject matter too intensely. However, I do have 42 years of experience at this thing called living and I have recently started a new business with a mild amount of success, I parent a 4 year old head-strong daughter with my partner, I work a full time job in the realm of criminal justice, I listen to a lot of podcasts, I love to cook, I love to garden (or at least turn soil), I sit in front of a computer for the better part of most of my days and I LOVE TO WRITE...at least I think I do. I mean don't get me wrong, I'm not totally nailing any one of these aspects of my life, my daughter, most likely, gets too much screen time, I nag my husband even though I don't want to, I don't much like my job or even know what I do, I lose interest in my garden about mid-July, I rely heavily on dairy and salt in my cooking, you get the idea. BUT, I have a lot of opinions, ideas, and thoughts, about nearly everything and will happily tell you about them without you asking.
The thing that has been on my mind the past few days is this approaching new year, 2020, bitches! These decades are sure flying by - I mean I clearly remember (at least up until some point in the night) my 1999 New Year's eve in Durango, Colorado. It was spent at the restaurant I worked at, Sweeney's, I don't believe the establishment is still around but at one time it was a bit of a Durango landmark. But you probably don't need to hear about my drunken New Year's Eve as a 22 year old waitress, so I'll spare you the deets. Needless to say, I've come a long way...maybe.
I'm not one to make resolutions, although I do certainly think of things I want to do in the coming year - be better about my website, increase my business sales, be more patient with my daughter, take my lunch to work, eat more vegetables, drink less, exercise more, save 30% of my income, learn how to reupholster furniture, clean the crawlspace...you get the idea. It boils down to just being and doing better, I don't need to be perfect but I do need to continue to, at least try, and be better.
2019 was an interesting year for me, after nearly 13 years at the same job I made a switch at the ripe age of 42. It wasn't too drastic, still in criminal justice but no direct service work. This has been an interesting a transition for me, in part because my new job is very loosely defined and also because there are times I miss my old job and the things that go along with being at an organization for 13 years. Also, deep down inside, or not that deep at all, I really just want to work for myself. I want to be creative and be allowed for that to be enough - this doesn't seem to be the world we live in. My family and I need money, health insurance, reliable income, and retirement. I want to be able to at least help my daughter get out of college with minimal debt, I want to pay off our house in the next 15 years, and take vacations abroad - these things come with a price, literally. But maybe I could make it work...this is my reoccurring thought - figuring out how to be creative, be my own boss, AND make money will be where I set my intentions, at least in part, this coming new year - oh, and the vegetable thing, I really do need to eat more vegetables.
So that might be it for now, not too exciting but it took all of 4 minutes to read so your investment was pretty minimal and so should be your complaining. I don't know how to get people to read this, I guess this is why people collect email addresses or something. I'm sure before long I'll have tons of subscribers and comments, people will start trolling, and it will be the usual merriment that is the interweb. Happy New Year and don't set yourself up for failure, just try and be a little better.